LIFE

LIFE

                                                         BY JIMOH OLAYINKA

Life! How do things work over here in this place called earth? What are the things that must be done to achieve my heart desires? These are part of the questions I ask myself everyday when I kickback to think and evaluate my life, where I am, things that I have achieved so far in this beautiful world of mine.

Life has been tough for me lately, from having problems with my father, to having issues with my siblings, fighting my way through my final year in school to fighting depression. I have been changing a lot lately, I am revolving , seeing life differently , having patience, developing my self-control, having so much confidence when around females, stopped looking down on myself, respecting people a lot and putting so much work into my  profession, career and my financial power. I can hardly recognize who I have become, I look at myself in the mirror and I see this guy with great spark in his eyes, ready to go and do anytime in the right path to achieve my heart desires and dreams.

There is this word that sometimes keeps me up late at night, makes me sleep, smile sometimes when I think about it, makes me keep pushing and moving forward during my hard and good times. It is a very powerful and beautiful aspect or concept of life that keeps every man moving, it is also a very dangerous thing, it can make a man lose everything, make a man cry and feel regrets in his last moments on this planet of ours, the crazy thing is, even when you are on the wrong path, you just keep going deeper and deeper in the wrong path, having in mind that things will change someday and unfortunately that day   doesn’t come and death is your only way out of your life of regrets. By now it is unequivocal that this powerful and dangerous word is HOPE.

Right now, I am thinking of my future, how great I want it to be, the great things I visual in this crazy mind of mine and it scares the shit out of me, I am really afraid, I am actually about to drop a tear from my right eye, oh man! I just dropped the tear and it is a tear of relief, hope, strength and faith in God’s power that all my worries can vanish in the next moment, my life can be rewarding and I can leave a great mark on the planet earth or maybe beyond, I hear scientists are really achieving breakthroughs in the habitation of other planets. A wise man once said “Wealth is a man’s curtain away from his past” I pray my curtain is made ready soonest.

Since I have talked about my struggles, it would be ungrateful of me not to talk about the few things that keeps me going in life, makes me happy and thankful to God. I have got this beautiful woman in my life called my mother. Like I said earlier, I went through a rough state in my life and I was really depressed and thought of many stupid things to do but the thought of my mother snapped me back to my right senses, I thought of the struggles she went through before giving birth to me, the 9 years she gave praying and working to have her second child in me, the love she has for me, the great future she sees in me and how she always supports my dreams like a soldier, How could I be so ungrateful and selfish to a woman that gives me everything without blinking.

This world of ours is very complicated and I believe every human being should be finding ways to make it is easier to live, thrive to have peace of mind. You can either choose to live your life in a way that you have peace or the other way around, financial freedom is our major problem, we all want to live the life of our dreams, have luxurious houses and rides, but you are getting older and you aren’t getting it right yet, your age mates and younger ones are getting it right, mostly in the illegal way, the peer pressure is setting in, you are losing patience, you are losing your mind, having sleepless nights, those crazy and desperate thoughts are flying about in your beautiful mind, you have finally decided that you will do it the easy and fast way but the problem is there is no easy way out. The troubles you will go through to keep your dealings hidden, the invaluable things you have to lose to make those sacrifices needed to make it quick, the ways you have to always watch your back all your life, then one day, you snapped and think, then you realized all what you have lost, still losing and will lose, then you see it was never the easy way out because who ever told you the illegal way was the easy way out couldn’t understand the mechanics and the workings of the underworld.  

In these journeys of life, we can only pray and hope that our struggles won’t put us down, make us lose sight of our big dreams but act as a source of motivation , experience and strength to thrive in this beautiful, fascinating and suspenseful journey of life. Former British Prime Minister, Benjamin Disraeli once said ‘The secret of success is consistency of purpose’ we all just have to keep pushing and pushing till we achieve our desired goals and we should always put in my mind “Nothing is permanent in this wicked world-not even our troubles.”-Charlie Chaplin